I'm so horrified. The very first weekend since school started will be spent doing the papers / homework we are supposed to hand up on Monday. I thought I'll have time to paint the town red, but I think I'm better off at home finishing up my work instead of lagging behind the rest of my class.

Lizzie called me this morning tell me how weird Lynz has been acting lately. I think that most of you might have realized it too. I think she has finally found her self worth and has already started enjoying life. I realized I'm becoming like her nowadays, just this morning I skipped a lecture to play rugby with my cousins at the park. When I used to chide her for skipping classes, I'm doing it myself. Sounds like I've got the playing traunt syndrome now.

Don't ask me why I don't want to talk about school work here, it's obvious since I'm stuck with school the whole entire day. I think I'll blog another time, when I've got less homework at hand. I wish all those in school the best of luck with all those horrible papers.

PS: I wonder how all those poly students make it through their horrifying projects.

School is giving me a headache. I regret taking medicine instead of law, but since I love it, I've decided to stick with it. The first day of school was a mess, I got lost while trying to find Lionel in school. Blame it on the fact that I didn't attend the orientation as I was too busy flying to and fro from Singapore to the States. I'll just update when I have the time.

Counting down to 2005 didn't hold much meaning any longer. For one thing, the world is depressed by the recent tidal wave that destroyed Phuket and many parts of Asia. All I have left are the memories of the places, there's nothing to remind me. No bulidings, no streets nor the hotel. The landmarks of my memories are gone.

I've broken up with Lynz with all regrets. I don't want to see her in pain anymore than she is in now. I know that she deserves better. I'm sorry lynz.

After a month, I'm updating my blog. This past month has been really busy for me. The endless flying across vast oceans has caused me to disorientate a little. I spent a week with lynz barely making it for our one month anniversary. During that week, I felt Lyns has changed alot. She seems more independent than before. I've never seen her so "changed" before.

The time I spent with my grandparents is France was refreshing and it felt really nice to be home. I missed Tia with all her endless chatter. She's really becoming more and more like my mum. A little "tai-tai" in the making. So now I'm back in the States to study and become a doctor. I'm finally doing what I want to do. Thank you to the people who supported me all these while. I would not have been where I am with you and your constant encouragement.

I'm already missin my baby. She's so stressed up in Spore. The weather here is getting colder by the moment. I spent about an hour with Tia on the phone and she was already whining about how Lynz is too busy for her.

Being back in France is really nice. Wine is great. Most of all, no more studying. I'm just glad Lynz is in good hands back in spore. I really have to go now. Will update soon.

Much as I want to leave on a happy note, it's not really possible. Lynz is down with a high fever and just got out of the hospital. I've never seen her so out of things before. Not once. There she was lying on the hospital bed shivering in cold. The injection and the ice bath only brought the temperature down by 10 degrees. By 6am this morning, the fever went back up to about 38.5 degrees. I didn't know the cause, I've never felt so useless before. She is so weak that she couldn't even move out of bed.

With just a week to go before I leave Singapore. Away from my darling Lynz and everyone I know from school. When dad planned this, it seems rather easy to walk away from the place I've called my home for the past 10 years. Now, as the time draws nearer, it's getting worse. It's back to my home, or rather a place that was only a summer house throughout the past 10 years. I've got no feelings for that place.

Angel is a really cute person. She told all of us to wreak a mess in the plane. I guess I will soon. To all those out there. Do pray for me. I'm not done with the papers yet. Blogging from the school computer lab now. Got to run now. Bye.

It's been a truly long time since I've last blogged. So here's what happened since I've last blogged. I dumped Carin (finally!) and I'm with Lynz. I couldn't take Carin's endless shopping trips when I had to be studying for my A level exams. Lynz went through the worst, because of Kenny, the spread of the illness. Lionel came back to Singapore and the night scene became it's usual self.

As for the GP paper, it was rather easy. Although I was trying to scare Lynz as she wasn't even studying for her exams. Last night, was the first time Lynz kept quiet for the whole entire night. Not wanting to talk to me even when we were side by side in the Swimming pool. I saw the difference in her when she came back. She was happier and smiling. However, the moment she saw me, she stopped smiling. I'm grateful to whoever the person is. I highly suspect that it's Kenneth. No one can cheer her up like he does. I'm just happy for them. If they ever get together after I leave, I'm willing to let go. It's Lynz happiness. Angel wrote an entry for Lynz. Thank you.

Lynz is driving me to my grave soon. She has absolutely no idea how worried I am. She hasn't been herself this whole entire week. She was crying the moment she heard Josh Groban's You raise me up and his other song, When you say you love me. She's not in a very state now, it's pretty obvious nowdays. She needs care, concern and esp love. She's deprived of it and she is making alot of terrible mistakes. I just hope that one day he will understand how she feels and forgive her.

Angel has cheered her up alot. Howie told me she hit 150 today. It seems like she is getting rather good nowadays. So much for her saying she doesn't want to learn how to play golf or she hates it. :)